MOMENTS OF SILENCE

While I was at the store today I saw the most beautiful woman I had ever seen..Long flowing curly hair almost like a cross between, shirly temple and medusa. Her eyes were brown and deep, when you looked at her it was as if she was dead, The kind of person you cant help but stop and ask with concern if everything is ok? I brushed her arm gently and with a smile of concern and asked in a sweet yet sturn voice if everything was ok..The look I recived back from this woman was one I can never forget. Her eyes filled with tears, they ran down her sweet carmel face and said 'it's over, I feel like everything I worked for in life is just over, The man I love cant seem to give me what I need, he stray's over and over'..My heart broke into a million and one peice's as I listined to this poor woman just ramble on as if she had no-one to hear her pain, No-one to feel and go threw what she had gone threw.I couldnt emgine a life like her's because I deserve so much better. So I started to think to myself 'what is this woman doing? She's beautiful, seem's smart, cute body, sweet yet humble' So I asked her why she stayed with this man? This was the reply I got, 'He's my bestfriend, we have an understanding and no matter how many time's I run I just find myself back at square one with him,He tells me never again, never another woman shale he gaze his eye's upon, yet it never change's' I couldnt help but have a tear run down my face for this poor woman since I know her pain all to well..Its something one never wants to feel..Even more if its some broke down fat whore, I took this poor woman by the hand and asked her if she would like to grab a cup of coffee and maybe a bagel, maybe even a little chit chat. She was all grand on the idea so we left and found a little spot to sit down in, of course its much better than in the middle of a store in a big town. I couldnt Imagine what this poor sole was gonna do because remember I was in the same situation not so long ago.It fucking hurts, even more when your the 'cat's meow' well? atleast you thought you were until something like this pop's up in your life..One of those things you cant seem to quite kill as easy as 'the man' wants you too.But anyway back to the story, she began to tell me of how she was looking threw his phone and found some message of how he had been turned on by some picture some woman had sent him, she had asked him right then right there..this was not the first time this had happend to her.She had whisped open the shower curtains and said 'whats this' of course it was the last thing he expected, for her to find out, and the same for her, she thought she was his world, dream, everything, she was wrong, felt like just a piece of ass to have when he was in town. She cried and I told her I understud the pain and shock she was going threw, god only knows I wouldnt know what to do.But she quickly told me of how after he had got that picture and asked for more he felt so bad, that he just stoped talking to her, and im sure in many ways was afraid to lose her, She also had told me how tired of the bullshit she was and how she's almost at the very end of just up and leaving.But at the same time she knows how much this man needs her because of all he's been threw, He has made huge change's in there life together as far as other woman, She also thinks he gets scared. I did remind her that being 'scared was not a reason nor a excuse for those action's, but that I did see where she/he was comming from. You see it could of been worse alot worse, He could of physicaly cheated, but he didnt, What he did was try to cover what had happend and fix it to spare her feelings knowing that she would be torn,But by leaving the messages on the phone he wanted to be caught for some reason or another. So maybe he realy dosnt care if he hurts her by leaving them on the phone..I wasnt realy sure what to say to this woman after all was said and done except that she had to do what felt right, her simple reply to me was that she didnt know what was right anymore and that she was just tired, and how if he dosnt love her and dosnt want her he needs to just let her go and disaper without a trace, he needs to do that for her, and not be so selfish because this woman is weak when it come's to this powerfull man, but in many ways he is the weak one..my only question is..How would it feel if your child was with someone who disrespected him/her and cheated and acted like a whore getting pictures and such, only to leave your child broken hearted..Id bet you would wanna kill him/her..I would, And if they dont make it, and im sure they will this is the least of whats come there way and yes he did make right, id hope that when he falls inlove with another that she burns him, scar's him for life..Then sits back and thinks of that one woman who tried to give him the world..and simply cry's, maybe cause when he calls he will find her in the arms of another giving him all that she gave 'the man'.. And as a personal message to 'MY GOD' in life, please continue to honor the love we share, please continue to love me like no other, please remember I try to show you the most respect as my partner in life and lover, and please never allow anyone to come between us cause yes, I love you and always will till the days come to an end. Your books gonna get published, my dreams will be fullfilled soon, and we will continue this journy threw thick and thin..let 'us' rest in peace in the arms of one-another, you and me...