childhood fears

In a world of madness, rape, and death, I live unnoticed and quiet as I draw pretty pictures of nightmares come alive and I scream silently inside as my world falls away and I see the truth inside.. all of this. I realize...my fate as I am revealed to myself and my uses. I am raped by his sexual needs, then left in the dark to rot until next time... I realize my meaning here as I am sacrificed, by my pain, to the darkness below caused by the wicked mother trying to end my breath.. and I wait, in silence, for the searing pain of a belt to cross my back.. I am angered by the endless futile attempts made each day, I run.. run through the countryside on a Black Winged Mare to the vast darkness known to man only in the far corners of their fear.. I watch the darkness slowly creep upon the town and Armageddon comes once again.