stomach

i feel so sick to my stomach.i keep smellin my acu to remind me of her. her smell is detinctive. i wish i could bottle it and keep while im gone . i dont know why because ive left this place before with a taste of freedom. but why is this time different. Its her she has my stomach in doin flips because i miss her touch. her eyes her hair everything about this women has me miss the world of freedom i left just a little bit ago. i want to be with her right now in bed holding her till she sleeps. make her feel secure in my arm like nothing can touch her or hurt. i want to step in front of her and block everthing bad that comes to her. she need to be clear minded while im gone i know she miss my laugh the way i look and smell when i get out of the shower. but 2008 is not soon enough for me or for her we need now. we each for strength to get threw this life of mountain and bump that we will travel. i know she tired of me leaveing already and i tried of living out o a backpack for six years. we want we've talked about for months and soon for years a that life in one place till we pass to the next world. i love her will all my life and would give my life for her and her family anytime they need it. im just that way. i care about other poeple more then i do me. i want them to be happy before me.