why do i cry my self to sleep

why do i cry my self to sleep every night,think about the next day. why? Because of not know what will happen to me on a daily bases. Im stuck in a far away land fighting the war of my generation and tommorrows generation. Even know if being their once its still different. I have some at home waiting to start a life and a family with me. It scares me that im a in a place that a can't control my on destine or fait. She is at home wonder what im doing if im alright and alive. But she is the tuffer one of us she doesn't cry when i leave she does cry when i come home. Why does she have to be the tuffer one of us. Its funny thinking what could be doing right know or durring the hole year that i have to waste in iraq. i could be with me wife starting the road to are life . Getting are carerrs started. but im over here fight a war that should have even started. i have so much to say but i wont say it because some one always getts mad .Because every buddy thinks they have the anwser or their a fucking expert about the war . let me talk to them. im see the world were the media controles a war. the goverment screws the military and the world because they have stocks ina certain company and the waant that product to be in circleation. so were equiped with shitty weapons and materials and a war over what daddy couldnt finish.