Hypnotized

Light shines through burden in my eyes
A tasteless, meaningless decline
Of restless soul proclaimed for doom.
The gray line of my mind, so gloom!
Anxiety of loss when reaching is so close
When winning is to loose yourself
Amidst a beautiful farewell, my madness reeks
Of stale, forbidden fruit, a passion for betrayal
The orange sun is in my eyes - just fragile, dying star
Its pale features colored with disgust of human stain
I’ve caused you pain
Sadistic smile does not appear
My face is empty of emotion
I am numb and cannot feel
Behind the dust and door on rusty hinges
Through the coma of chemical imbalance
Pure of hatred and belief in masochistic wisdom
It’s me, presenting yet myself to court of jesters
Pranksters, dealers in death and empty social escapades
I am trapped and see no fire escapes
No exit signs will light my way to freedom of the soul
I am alone and fool for that
There is no freedom, only fake that fills my heart
With empty promises as I disembark
To lead my journey from this madness
Into another world, where I’ll be sad, but less
Enthusiastic about taking my own life
And razor blade or sharp and trusted kitchen knife
Will hypnotize my eyes no more
Farewell my sick and dearest state
Of disillusions, self-centeredness and pampered egoism
Belief in greatness of my own self is gone
I drop the gun, pressed against my temple, on the floor
I will not shoot as I am free at once from burden in my eyes
A tasteless, meaningless decline has hit the spot
And carcass of the soul has stopped its doom
My mind is so distinct in black and white perspective, not so gloom!
Not anymore as I tore the chains from tired heart
A fresh, new start I’m not afraid to take
I was once hero build on lies and world of fake
And now that I fell from sky to ground
Of clarity and wisdom in pure spirit I am proud
Light shines no more and I can raise my eyes
For now it is my turn to hypnotize…