How am I feeling

How I am feeling

This year has started
Like the last one ended
With me confused
At a loss
Feeling abandoned
Left to fend for my self
To scrounge after a promising loving feeling
I THINK TO MUCH!!

I feel stuck in a hole
And there is no way to climb out
Seeing the top which I can’t reach
No breaks for a step
Smooth as Ice

I scream for help
I wait for the rope
No rope or reply!!
Alone standing still
As the world passes by

My personal prison
Is my mind
Headaches from thinking
Depressed and acting like nothing is wrong to others
But it’s in my Eyes
You can see it plain as day
The horror
The pain
The desperation eyes
Look deep in my soul

The still of the night
The silence surrounds me
Or is it emptiness?
Alone in my own torment
I go to sleep crying
For a better day
This nightmare has to end!!