My mothers love

You were almost twenty
when you had me,
you were all alone
and never free.
Instead of growing up,
and accepting your destiny.
You decided to not accept
And blame me.
I tried to love you and
Help you be free.
You ignored me and
And told me I should never be.
You met another when I was still little,
I was very okay with him,
I knew he’d make you whole again.
Very soon I was told I’ll have a sister.
Wasn’t too happy, because I wanted a brother.
I would escape to my Grandmothers,
Hoping that would make you feel better.
I just wanted to be accepted,
I just wanted to have a relationship.
A mother to daughter, and friends forever.
Instead you made me the enemy.
I was just a kid Mom,
And you still hated me.
For your sins, you decisions,
For your lust and musts,
You didn’t want me.
You loved my sister more than me.
I know you would never admit or
See from my perspective.
But since she was your princess,
I’m just neglected.
Some more news of a brother.
So excited, all I needed was a mother.
I have a new Daddy, sister and brother.
Just wanted to be accepted,
Just wanted my mother.
Almost a teenager can’t take the pressure.
I hated you mom, I hated how you loved the others
And not me.
So I escaped to my Grandmothers,
So you would hit me.
You didn’t touch my siblings,
But you would beat me.
I would rebel mom, I hated you.
I would rebel because according to you
I wasn’t yours.
You tell me all the wrongs of my Bio Father.
You tell me all the wrongs of me.
Never heard a compliment, not even a peek.
Since I am a teenager now,
I look forward to leaving you.
Couldn’t wait till I was eighteen.
Couldn’t wait till I was Free.
You tell me not to have friends Mom,
That they would all betrayed me in the end.
I had to realize that it was you,
my friends help me get through this, yeah my friends.
Now I am graduating, yes Mom me.
Your failure child, your trial.
I did it, just God and I.
You still didn’t even give me a smile.
I was so happy to finally leave you.
I didn’t even feel to care about you,
You would swear to dad that
my siblings will be better then me.
That I will turn out to be
the worse of the family.
I gave my life to God,
You didn’t believe me.
I talked to him about you,
That was my strength in me.
He told me to forgive you,
So I could be free.
He told me to forgive you,
So you could see.
Now I’m getting married mom,
And no I’m not pregnant.
I finally met him mom,
And told him all of it.
He doest like you mom,
Because of me.
He didn’t like the way you treated me.
I want you at my wedding,
I want you to see.
I’m doing my best even though
You never wanted me.
My daddy is so proud of me.
He’s not even my real father,
And he accepted me.
He walked me down the aisle,
Right by my side.
He said I love you and smiled.
For the first time I saw you smile too mom
It was weird.
I thought maybe my veil was wrong,
Or you saw my tears.
So I went on with my life mom.
My husband and I,
He taught me that all you taught me was a lie.
He told me to just keep going without you,
He told me that and showed me his view.
A mother to daughter relationship,
Can be a very good thing.
He told me to love you,
So I wouldn’t have that sting.
I am now PREGNET mom,
And very excited to have a son.
He so precious,
how can you not love your child?
How can you be so mean?
I love Raphael, with my everything.
It’s not his fault he’s here.
It’s Stephens and mine,
Because our love.
He has such a shine.
I will never neglect him, not even some.
I will never beat him, not even cause.
He is my angel, He is my love.
Now my sisters pregnant and not even in love.
Who’s the screw up mom, who’s your pain?
Yeah it was her mom it was your princess.
She’s going get married after she has the baby.
Did you know that she didn’t want the baby?
Did you know she was going to kill it?
I told her mom, I told her it was wrong.
It’s not Anna’s fault that she had to come.
I told my sister that I love her,
To not let Anna feel that neglect.
To love her even though she wasn’t planed.
To love her, because she’s in her hands.
Just to accept.
I love my brother too, Mom,
I pray for all of you.
I pray that this never happens again Mom.
I pray for you.
I love you mom,
Even though you don’t.
I love you mom,
One day I hope you love me.
I’m moving mom far from you to see.
My family and I are going to start a new.
I pray for you mom
Because I love you.