a conversation i have alwasy wanted to have with my mom...but never will |
Dear Mom, I just wanna say I love you… even when I cuss and shout. I wish you could understand me, but I know you never will. I don’t do drugs. I’m really not as bad as I seem. I only act the way I do cuz I’m scared. Scared I’m failing you every time you look at me with that sorrow in your eyes. Please don’t yell so much and please don’t raid my room. Yes, I hide things under my bed but it’s mostly chocolate… and bad poetry. I’ not a hooker I don’t play around. I just wanted someone to cuddle, Is that such a bad thing? Please don’t cry when we fight it makes me want to cry too and then I feel guilty when I didn’t do anything wrong. Anyway, just wanted to say I still love you mom. Dear Daughter, I want to say I love you I really don’t know how. I’m sorry that I alienate you. See, I’m really just scared. Every time I look at you I remember my sweet baby, and it’s hard to watch you change into this grown woman that you are. I watch the news a lot, it seems that everyone is doing drugs, having sex and going to jail. I know you’re a good kid, (after all you came from me), but I fear some one will get you and really, I want you all to myself. I couldn’t bear to see you leave. That’s why I cry so much. I think your slipping away. I go into your room a lot just to feel closer to you… We have drifted so far. Where are my hugs? I realize I might not understand you. but please always know, I love you baby...forever. |