my muse hates me

my muse hates me

my muse hates me
i let a man
come between me and her
i let him on earth
rule what she
in spirit told me
so what if i leaned on her words
to get me through the day
and when he didnt understand me
i let her have a say
my muse hates me
and its all my fault

my muse hates me
she left, came back, and burnt out again
she aint even thinking about me
it dont matter that the words flow through my blood like ice
they'll never hit the air
they'll never see the light
my muse hates me
and i tell you
there aint shit i can do

my muse hates me
in a way
no one else could ever do
she wont speak to me
she wont play with me
she wont even look at me
i took her soul and her voice too
all over a man
when she left she said
"i'll fix that bitch
lets see how she likes it
when them words start to itch

my muse hates me
i ignored her
i told her
i dont need her
i got jealous
of her courage
and tried to destroy her
she hates me
and you know what
i'm sorry
if you can hear me
i'm sorry
i'm sorry for leaving you
when you needed me
i'm sorry i wasnt there
when you called
please, please forgive me
and come back