Poetry Collection

*What’s The Point?*

Intense emotion
Passion, heat, flame
What does it all mean?

Is this right?
How would I know?
Intense pleasure

I’ve lost the ability to think
Words mean nothing
Control?

What are we doing?
Why are we doing this?
Is it right?

It doesn’t matter
What’s done is done
I’ll always remember

You gave me hope
Hope for things I’ve never seen
Hope for things I’ve never experienced

I won’t see those things with you
I won’t experience them with you
It wasn’t meant to be

The pain will come
I know it will
It always does

A constant reminder of what I’m not
A constant reminder of what I am
Confused, alone, lost

What can be said?
What can be done?
It’s over now

I lost something I can’t take back
We lost something we can’t take back
How could we have known?

Why are you so kind?
It only hurts more
It means so much less

I want so much more
More than you can give me
More than I can give you

It shouldn’t have to be like this
I care too much
Too much for you to know

What I see in me is wicked
What I see in you is remarkable
Kindness, compassion, hope

We have to go on
We have to live
I wish it didn’t have to be like this


*Again*

Remember me?
Remember us?
Remember we?

It’s been forever
Since the days
When we were friends.

We’d sit and talk
And laugh for hours.

I don’t understand
Why things have changed.
I’m still the same
But you are not.

When I try to talk to you
I know you don’t listen.

I haven’t heard you laugh in ages.
I haven’t seen your brilliant smile.

I want to hear all your secrets
I promise I won’t tell anyone.

I want to know
Everything you are.

I want to forget what
Life is like without you.

I’ll be here, from now until forever
When you need me the most.

I miss the days you’d hold me tight
The long nights I spent wrapped in your arms.

Hold me again.
Talk to me again.
Love me again.


*Love/Hate*

I wish that I felt indifferent about you,
Instead I feel love and hate.

You see; love and hate are so strong.
Indifference is nothing; the lack of feeling.

Love is too much,
I can’t love you.

Hate is even more,
I don’t hate you.

But I’m not indifferent,
I feel, I care.

If only I didn’t.
If only I couldn’t.


*No More*

I thought I got over you
Until you walked through the door
I felt you before I saw you
I don’t want that punch

Not from you
Not anymore

You caused me more pain than I’ve ever known
It all came flying back
The raw emotion I gave you
The way you threw it all back

You’ve caused all my pain

Not anymore

No pain anymore


*Yes or No*

I can’t tell your response to me by the way you move, I can’t tell by the way you talk, you don’t let me know what you feel; you share your daily life, you tell of your friends, you recite what you did during the day but I don’t know what I mean to you, why won’t you just tell me- in words, not some sign language that only you understand- you don’t ever say what you really feel, at least you don’t to me; you have no idea how much it kills me to have you lying in my arms late at night and not tell me what you are thinking; I know that I annoy you with my endless banter but I can’t take it anymore becuause I love you so much that it’s killing me to be in the same room as you and not know what you are thinking, feeling (I only know what I am thinking and feeling, too much at times, at others not enough) what do you have against telling me, saying the words? why is it so hard for you to let me know, just once, what your heart is telling you? is it telling you what my heart is telling me? just let your heart tell you what is right, for once it may be a good idea; I Love You, I don’t care who knows, I don’t care what I mean to you, not anymore, I Love You, that’s all there is to it; do you love me? yes or no?