It Feels So Good

razorblades cut into my skin
bleed out all the unholyness within
bandage it tight with hopes and dreams
then corrupt the wound with reality and schemes
gray is the new shade of my happiness
replace my heart with despair and emptiness
corrosion of conformity and of mind
i don't want to leave but you've left me behind

it feels so good to feel again
it feels so good to have a soul to lend
it feels so good to purge this pain
it feels so good to feel insane
it feels so good to ruin my life
it feels so good to pay the price
it feels so good to have no friends
it feels so good to feel again

these innumerable throbs of anguish
recede to the hollows of my heart
it took too long for you to notice this
now i realize that i've hated you from the start
i have nothing left to give
this is a life i refuse to live
i can feel my moral decay just under my skin
every thought i conquer is another corrupted sin

it feels so good to feel again
it feels so good to have no one listen
it feels so good to feel invisible
it feels so good to feel unlivable
it feels so good to know there is no god
it feels so good to know i'm wrong
it feels so good to feel these sins
it feels so good to feel again

tarnishing all that I thought was right
combating a war and losing the fight
destroying my past and the path in front of me
total damnation of all I thought could be
an iron cage is rusting around my hungry soul
I’m so desperate and I’ve lost all control
convictions of morbidity, confessions and of lies
believing everything I’m told so I don’t become what you despise

it feels so good to feel again
it feels so good to see in red
it feels so good to feel obscene
it feels so good to feel so mean
it feels so good to fall behind
it feels so good to lose my mind
it feels so good to know you hate me
it feels so good when you berate me
it feels so good to feel so dead
it feels so good to feel again