Omg! I won't ask you if you are okay. I know you are not. I have lost fur babies before. sometimes it is harder than others. I know when I lose my Gracie it is going to tear me apart. People will give you conflicting advice. Some will say to wait and the right fur baby will come to help you. Some will say to rush out and buy one to replace her. I don't think either way. I think you should follow the path that helps your hurt. When you do feel like it is time, go to a shelter, be open to anything that calls to you and remember it is your chance to save a life in her honor.