maybe the severity of what he was about to do finally hit him, maybe they had done something to his brain, or maybe that his body don't just look like a little girl's but actually is one for all intended purposes, maybe its all of the above, but thinking on it, something inside Jack cracked, he was not ready for this, it was to scary of a thought, why was he risking everything like this?
for the first time ever, Jack felt small, or maybe its the world fells bigger? he was not sure, but he did not want to do this, he knew there was no chance they would let him quit, and the operations were super invasive, he would never grow up, he would forever be a small helpless girl, incapable of self defence, what if this is just the first mission of many? how would he resist them sending him off once again after the mission?
he realise he cant do this, he fells a desire he has not felt in years, the desire to be held and told all will be okay, jack leapt trough the window, and he ran, he ran buck naked trough the night, never to return to that place, he had nothing to his name, no money, no friends, no loved one's, and now not even a identity, maybe this was perfect, he could disappear and start a entirely new life