"A Problem Page For All!"

I never thought I'd be the type to argue with any of my friends, but I think it's been building up for a while...

It all began with stuff that happened back at the start of university and me and Simon discuss a lot of dark things and we get on well because we have similar personalities and we both are dealing with some pretty crappy things in our life. Kinda like Kindred Spirits in a way...

Anyway, our whole frienship group has issues and everyone deals with things in different ways and we were discussing one of our mutual friends who we think is drinking too much and what we can do about it... And he didn't like the fact I said we couldn't really DO anything... That kinda sparked the arguement as it bought up a lot of shit about ourselves and everyone's situation.

I deliberately used things against him that I knew would really hurt and he was upsetting me with things he was saying, so our words became weapons and voices were raised etc... He asked me to leave and I stormed off saying 'Have fun' and he was like, 'What the f*** is that supposed to mean?' I did the whole girly slamming of doors thing, went back to my room, cried, played loud music, then slagged him off for a while! He went out for a very long walk...

We didn't speak for nearly 3 days after that. Then he came to see little Sam (yes they're still together and hopefully will have a better relationship because some things were raised and questioned and provoked from the arguement) and asked to see me in my room.

We went to my room and talked for a while and i was all defensive and bitchy and that caused some tension. I made him cry (I seem to have a knack at making men cry, not that I'm proud of it or anything) and then we talked properly for like 3 hours. A lot of stuff was cleared up and I said sorry for hurting him, but that I wasn't sorry for saying the things I said, because I believe they were things that needed to be spoken about, even if i went the wrong way about it all.

Things are okay between us now I guess, but it's gonna be a while before we can build our trust up again. It's gonna be strange in the meantime, but I do hope we can both think about the things that were said and how to remedy some of the shit going on...

Anyway, the main thing is that we've made up and it was killing me not speaking to him coz he's my best friend right now and without him at uni I'd have probably killed myself or soemthing...

So yeah, that's basically what happened, without giving away what it was we were arguing about! lol.