United in our Grief Forum.

I lost my dad in 96 I don't think I can bear to lose my husband. Soon we will be celebrating our 35th Wedding Anniversary I don't think I could bear that alone. He has a severe case of pneumonia he has been in hospital since this past Sunday. They admitted him and did a xray definitely pneumonia started anti biotic right away. Today they did blood work and found that his white cells were rising again. They promptly did ct scan I don't know the results as of yet. I pray that God has seen to it that he has good doctors taking care of him. I saw him today and my heart broke into even more .. He was struggling for air even with oxygen on. He didn't want me to go he's afraid. I'm afraid he is going to die. We did nt speak the words didn't have to after 35 years of marriage. The nurses suggested kindly I go home because his blood pressure was rising and heart rate. I thought about going back tonight and being with him. But then again that might make things worse. Honestly I don't what to do. I'm at such a loss .....