Mystical Meditations

Hey, Nangwaya!

Tips for stress...hmmm...

I've read books, articles, white papers, and listened to endless diatribes about reducing stress until it stressed me out so much I chucked it all. I guess I've been looking in all the wrong places for the magic wand that would stop the stress, and then I would live happily ever after.

It turns out that for me, the first tip was to eject myself from the toxic environment I was in, eliminate the toxic people from my life, and then take a good hard look at how and why I am always stressed to the max. I'm still in the process of examination, but I'm discovering some very interesting things about myself. It's looking like I am addicted to stress, and that realization is enough to blow out what's left of my mind.

As with all addictions, until you hit bottom and see the reality of the situation, nothing will change. Well, I hit bottom. But, before I start trying to fix all the reasons for living stressed, I am trying to learn how to physically relax. My body hurts, my muscles are in knots and having spasms, and I'm in a great deal of pain, My doctor explained this as a somatization disorder--a defense against psychological distress, and my body is paying the price for psychological pain.

I'm learning to stretch muscles and I walk slowly. I can't exercise much yet without the threat of pulled or torn muscles, or worse. I'm practicing relaxation techniques, which are a source of much laughter and frustration, but I'm told if I continue my mind will eventually join in. Meditation...not going so well...but still giving it a go.

I live with hope.

Blessings,

wizzie

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