Writer's Fallout Shelter

When I first started writing my main fantasy series, I was 15. I wrote roughly 3 books and reveled in my standard "Tolkeinish soap-opera" of dozens of emotionally troubled characters(my Husband calls them psychotic, but I cannot bring myself to call them such). Then I discovered the backstory. Convinced that the story must start at the beginning, (just over a thousand years previous) I have spent the last 5 years writing and revising two of the four books of backstory. I spent 2 years on revising and cleaning book I and eagerly started submitting it to publishers - a first for me! Publication, here I come!

However, now, after a lot of feedback, serious thought and reflection, I admit that no matter how I decorate it, the backstory has no truly satisfactory end. Since I want readers to continue to read my stuff, I have decided to abandon the backstory and return to cliche chaos of where I started. Yet, the entire world and reality needs an overhaul - as well as an actual plot! Part of me feels like I've definitly been sent back to "the drawing board", but someone seems to have set it aflame.

A quiet voice inside whispers that I shall rip out the foundations and build anew - this time stronger, better and greater.

The years spent on the backstory will not be wasted for I have grown so much, but I would be a fool to pretend that I feel no frustration.

To feel so close - so close and yet so far.

-Renegade