Red Opium.

You've gone so long without it. You know how terrible it was when you went through it, so why go back? Because it was your plan?

I think you should listen to Ashley. Try making another plan. Say, maybe try to go a few months without it. If you can, try going longer without it.

Do things you love to do during that time, try things you haven't done or always wanted to do. Have fun, keep your mind off of SI.

-Kelly