Red Opium.

It's a scary feeling not knowing whether you are alive or not. But do try to believe that you are. You don't have to see blood to prove that to yourself. Just being able to feel should show you that. You can't feel if you aren't alive. I think you should try to keep with wearing a rubberband around your wrist, and when you get this feeling, snap it on your wrist. If you can feel it, there's no doubt about it, you're definately alive

The feeling that something has gone wrong can't be fixed by hurting yourself. Maybe, you could try and think about everything, make sure nothing has gone wrong, to show you that the feeling isn't true?

Kelly