Red Opium.

You're not the only one who does it for that reason.

I'd say, try the ice first, if you can feel it, you're alive.

But it could also be just the site of blood. So you could try maybe getting some red food coloring, putting some drops into an ice tray and make red ice, so when you use the ice, the red is there like you did harm.

Well, when you need someone to talk to, you can always find someone here
I'm sure you're not a burden on anyone.

-Kelly