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I am sorry, is all they could say.
Hurt and confused, is how I spent the hours.
Fighting the beast within in my soul.
Just give me more drugs, take the pain away.
I don’t want the blinds up and please no flowers.
Leave me alone with my heart of coal.

The priest came he told me to pray.
I scream and I rant, but like the others he cowers.
The beast is winning; stealing my soul.
I don’t give a damn, just let me have my way,
Embracing death has given me unnatural powers.
So leave me alone with my heart of coal,
Why not? I have nothing left to live for.

My friends would come each day,
While I sorted through what was ours.
And inside, the beast was still eating my soul.
They would look at me with dismay
As I sat drinking my whiskey and sours.
I would cry out, "Leave me alone with my heart of coal!"

I look out my window and the world is grey.
Since your death my sadness devours
The beast, sated within my soul.
My life without you is still in disarray.
But I am hoping in the end, my grief empowers,
Breaking through my heart of coal.
Letting in the love and light; opening the door.