Red Opium.

Sorry.


I can't really remember the last time that I cried, it's been that long.

My mom says that I'm unlike the rest of the family in that where they have a pretty short fuse and are easy to set off, my fuse is longer.



I hate crying, it makes me feel weak and helpless, two things that bring back awful and nasty memories for me. And I have a tendency to get upset and cry over things that either make no sense to other people [as is more often than not the case], or I cry for people, because they can't or won't or because I feel like it, dammit.



I hate feeling like I care too much in a world full of people that don't care at all.





Today, I think I'll just put my head down and cry for myself.


Ash
A million stars look on in witness to our dreams -Thrice