somethin i wiped up

As i stand out in this cold winter night i hope
to find him to see his shining silver eyes through the dark depths of his moonlit hair but instead i see nothing, nothing but an empty shell of a boy i use to know, i prey he is still in there the kind and loving boy i use to know is he still there? or is he not this boy he has become as it pains me say the happy and kind boy i once new is gone, snatched up by depression's dark and icy grips. As he stands out in the cold snowy night, blood dripping from his hands i can only hope he will come out of this madness i can only stand and watch as he takes a step closer holding his hand out to me "come with me we can go to a better place" he exclaimed i knew what he meant, die in each others arms like romeo and Juliet, no i couldn't let my illness take me away from this world, he sees the expression on my face makes him frown, he drops to his nees into the red spotted snow he stares up to me "that's ok" he said "I understand i hope to see you again... my love" as he drops to the cold blood stained snow his heart stops mine skips a beat. I step off of the safe and warm deck of my home i walk, my mind thinking of nothing but him "goodbye... my love" i mumble as i walk up to his now limp and bloodstained body i pull him up over my arms and bring him inside, i lay his body down flat onto my pitch black carpet i get a cloth and clean his cold wrists, myself in tears i clean up his blood stained top and pants my mind slowly fading i brush his hair away from his face "ill meet you...i promise" i say as i lover myself down and fall limp "i...love...you" i exclaim as my vision comes to a blur.. and then nothing my mind ever so slowly is fading drifting into an eternal slumber.