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Through the eyes of a writer and traveler 😁! Life and some spiritual musings. |
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Welcome Y'all 🤠. I'm into animal rescue and rights. Positive vibes and activism! 😻🙏 It's been interesting for the past 20 years. Good folks on here and a great 😃 writing community. It's time for rethinking my writing and growing as a person . Sharing how to help others and ourselves 😉 has always been my motivation! Hugs 🤗 to new and old peeps! " The journey of 10,000 miles Begins with one step 🪜. --Lao Tzu What you don't like Don't do to another. Rabbi Hillel Do unto others as you would have someone Do unto you. Jesus 🙏 |
| Thanks to all the wonderful folks who have been so supportive here throughout the 20 years, since I first joined with the pen name dddreamcat! A lot of what I've been writing about is what I have to, mainly living these past 3 years. It's as if everything before was a mirage. The traveling across the country the planning for it, the adventure, and the stress along the way. The plans for writing about it and my life since birth have become stuck in limbo. The plans for the future and the decisions behind it now maybe just poof and gone. Our hope for the future is bleak today. Her sight has gotten worse and it's always been left to us to figure it out. Since we met as teenagers in an apartment in Brooklyn decades ago. Over the years we learned skills like chopping wood 🪓 🪵, growing a garden. She fought fire for the US Forrest Service and practically ran a whole supermarket for 14 years ( being able to help in every department) I almost became a nurse but did my best as a CNA. When times called for it we worked odd jobs in retail, health care, social media ambassador for a Ballet studio. And other positions. We tried for years to own a house with a yard but always falling through the cracks ( not enough income or credit when we were younger or long enough work experience.) programs like Habitat for Humanity or Saint Vincent de Paul didn't pan out. Instead we made each rental house our home and took care of it and made improvements like adding roses and other flowers and added to the soil. Built stairs and other things to make sure it was up to code, during the times we were raising our grandkids with special needs and brought them everywhere to improve their lives. Tons of pictures remind me of all the times we brought good and made things happen. For us and for others like a homeless family we saw one day. They had been burned out from the Paradise fire in California. ( When we lived in Oregon.) We gave the mom of four information for First Place Family Shelter and other resources in Eugene. I gave her $20.00 and said " You'll all be alright we're praying for you 🙏" We always helped when we could... Now we are in Mississippi and it's not looking good for us. There are no resources here and that's why we were going to move to Florida. For a bus line and the hope of making our last time on earth better than being stuck in an apartment,day after day. No parks and the ride to the beach is too long now. Because I've been spending so much time trying for health care and so on, we've been stuck inside a dark Apt with not much light. We had to hang extra light bulbs in the kitchen so she can see. The TV looks mostly black and white and she can't make out a lot of what she sees. I do the narratives . For the last year we were working hard on something that could have changed our life. In the end it was another dead end sadly. So today I will thank the nice souls for the MB' s and I did finish my entry for the Vagrant Vignettes contest! It may be my last writing of something new, after so long. I don't know right now. I do know that if I didn't have here to be and belong, it would be terrible for me. I keep things inside because who wants to know the truth sometimes. Very few but there are those who get it. Because they have been there themselves. And have lived it or have a deeper empathy for others, through faith or reality 🙏 🕯️ 🌹. I didn't plan to write ✍️ any of this once again but a voice in my head said " you should get it out. " It also said " What if you wrote an ebook about all of this and your life?" I think " what does it matter anymore? What would it do? Who would care anyway? Even if they do, no one can help because it's just too big of problems. Even God G-d can't or won't help. The ship is sinking and taking on water 🌊 💦 it's like the Tarot card The Tower , which means the collapse of the building or of everything in your life." So it's how it's meant to be. We played Mega Bucks yesterday ( it was over a Billion) We thought about helping dogs and taking in animals if we had a place like that. We always think the same dreams, because that's all they are. Nothing changes except to get worse. So what's the moral to that? How can I keep hope alive when there's not much to hope for anymore, because it's out of our reach and realm? It's not a pity party but stone 🪨 cold reality. I wanted this to be a better year and it hasn't even started. Funny thing that my Jewish birthday is Jan 1st ! That's how it falls on the Jewish calendar. Ironic it's Christmas and Hanukkah and New Year's. Maybe something magical will happen but I don't know what could anymore. It feels like all hell is breaking loose --not fair devil... Thanks for turning in and I wish I had a happier one today. Blessings 🪻 ☯️ for the new year y'all. |
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