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Meth: a Ticking Timebomb Gone Viral

by Dr Gonzo

Rated: 18+ · Book · Biographical · #2258138

This is my blog & my hope, writing daily will help me see my progress and log supporters.

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Kåre เลียม Enga

Jan 7, 2025 at 11:31am
In response to "A Prepper Newbie"

The Earth will survive... with or without humans. Perhaps our molecules will recombine into something greater. One can hope for a future regardless.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Jan 7, 2025 at 11:27am
In response to "The Perfect End to a Perfect Couple of Days"

Joy in the simple and precious moments.

Spirit~writer 🎄🕎⛄

Jan 2, 2025 at 9:05pm
In response to "The Perfect End to a Perfect Couple of Days"

Nice take on life and love. Be safe and well!

Kåre เลียม Enga

Dec 11, 2024 at 1:43am
In response to "Getting Away"

Yes, in general, two-three nights sounds perfect. I'm slowing down so "one night" is problematic. See how having a guest goes. I'll likely visit you when I can also go to Prachuap Kiri Khan so please tell me how that visit goes.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Dec 9, 2024 at 9:12am
In response to "Bah Humbug"

I don't like mid-December - mid-January in Montana. Too gloomy and the place is ghostly.

Growing up December was brutal unless it snowed. January was snowier and brighter.

Being elsewhere is fine with me. Thailand last year. Thailand this year.

I don't celebrate Christmas.

Pychotogenx

Dec 7, 2024 at 8:37pm
In response to "Mr Diabetes"

Hey Dr Gonzo. Sounds like you're doing well. Compared to the alternative, I think a little weight gain might be a small price to pay.
Every NA and AA meeting I've ever been to has featured candy or pastries of some kind. I'm pretty sure it just goes with the territory. The last time I used was a pretty heavy relapse in 2018 but I've been clean since then. No drinking or drugging. MAYBE a joint once or twice a year. I stayed pretty heavy for the first couple years of sobriety.

Even today, I have a severe sweet tooth. I can't sleep without a belly full of something sweet. I've found that my body doesn't mind the sugar in peanut butter and milk. I can gorge myself and still stay lean.

I'm glad you and Nada found each other. I look forward to your adventures together.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Dec 4, 2024 at 10:53am
In response to "High Season vs Low Season"

Hadn't thought of MSG and coughing. I don't add salt like many people.

I've had three days of coughing. A bit better earlier today but coughing now as I typed.

High season = must book in advance.

Cooler. High 80s this week; high 60s at night.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Nov 29, 2024 at 11:10am
In response to "Mr Diabetes"

Sugary donuts today! And coffee.

Not much of an appetite though.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Nov 28, 2024 at 11:00am
In response to "Schools in Thailand"

Yep. Uniforms. Short >>> long pants. Fighting is seen in movies, but I sense less violence in general in-real-life. Respect is absolute.

I'm sleeping on the floor tonight.

He'll survive that aspect of school.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Nov 18, 2024 at 3:16am
In response to ""Sir...Your Disorder Is Ready""

I have made great progress on my trip. Leave on the 19th here; arrive on the 21st in Kuala Lumpur. I will leave Penang on the 1st for a short flight to Phuket, stay 2 days then fly to Udon Thani... avoiding Bangkok. I'll be in Ayutthaya on the 15-17th of December. I may have time to see you before or after.

I also have no plans for January yet.

Pan is driving my bonkers; but, I'm slowly understanding that much of it is cultural and how he uses language.

As for HOCD... some of us are just who we are. I've always been left-handed. That wasn't always acceptable and many suffered from the labels.

I remind Pan that he's handsome just the way he is. I'll repeat that until he accepts that.

July 29, 2023 at 3:21am

#1053249

Down...But Not Out

It gets harder every time. Failing time and again depletes my morale. I am struggling to come up with words...staring blankly at the screen, not knowing what to say next. It's frightening, to say the least. The hope is I will recover my thoughts and get back to normal, but right now, I'm not sure if that will be the case.

Darkness has replaced light. The clear vision I had before is now blurred. The confidence I had built up over the last three months is gone, and in its place, only questions remain. I am lost.

Today, I took my first steps. I had run out of supplies and although I didn't want to go out in public, it was either that or scrape up whatever I could from what remained. I got in and out of the store as quickly as I could...eyes down. And this afternoon, I got out on my bike for a short ride. It was all I could manage to do.

Tomorrow will be better. I have food in the house and hopefully, things will look a little less bleak than they do today.

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