Ten years ago I was writing several blogs on various subjects - F1 motor racing, Music, Classic Cars, Great Romances and, most crushingly, a personal journal that included my thoughts on America, memories of England and Africa, opinion, humour, writing and anything else that occurred. It all became too much (I was attempting to update the journal every day) and I collapsed, exhausted and thoroughly disillusioned in the end.
So this blog is indeed a Toe in the Water, a place to document my thoughts in and on WdC but with a determination not to get sucked into the blog whirlpool ever again. Here's hoping.
My mother, the ugly duckling, the middle child of 7, outlived them all. Died three years ago at age 99; her youngest sister died at age 93 the month before. She nearly died when she was 35 and again in her 80s. She amazed us all.
Hopefully you can honor us with your presence once you regain strength.
So sorry for your loss. It's natural to be reflective, and the "deserving" or not is part of that reflection. It's hard to lose siblings. I lost one of my own a few years ago, and it never really leaves you. Take the time you need. It will scar over, and not really heal, but you will be ok again one day, if "ok" is the right word.
Perhaps the old will return, or perhaps a combination of the old instilled with some change will prevail. Keep at it and soon enough you will find you again have a routine that works for you.
I also will say sorry for your loss. I think you expressed your thoughts well. Life is precious but we all have an end date. The memories will keep your thoughts of your sister alive in your heart.
I tend to write to deal with grief, it helps me think and release my feelings. You have a lot to deal of healing needed physically and emotionally. Know that you also have people here who care and support you.
So sorry for your loss. Take as much time as you need to sort things out. There's no right or wrong way to grieve. I'd say the defining feature of "mourning" is dwelling on your personal feelings, and sometimes they can be complicated.
That's why we say "sorry for your loss". We recognize that those left behind have lost something. The bereaved lose a part of their world, a someone who belonged in their personal life story, someone who shared memories with them that they may now have to carry alone because no one else would understand. It's not selfish to mourn, it just illustrates the value of the one who has passed and gives them their due importance.
I'm sorry for your loss like Cubby said, everyone's grief is different. I don't want to make any personal suggestions about fond memories or whatever. Take care
The days settle into a routine and the sudden change of the last few weeks begins to dissipate. It’s not a comfortable routine as yet, however. That will have to wait until I have more focus on where this all leads.
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