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| I've got so many balls in the air, I'm afraid one is going to whack me on the head. This is probably why I can't sleep. I actually got in bed around midnite but had a helluva time falling asleep. I drifted off at some point, only to wake at 3 with my hip and knee hurting. So I grabbed a body pillow and tried again. At 4, I woke to go to the bathroom and again drifted off. But when I woke at 5, I was congested and sweaty. It was at that point that I said screw it and turned on the coffee. Ravyn has been doing so good lately! She's been staying up late playing with friends online. It's great to hear her laugh and just be a typical teen. I feel like upping her Zoloft has had a big impact. She went to the mall with a friend last week and has even asked to go out to the grocery store with me. Her dog died a year ago yesterday, so it was a sad day. But she didn't fall apart. She's been actively involved in getting our business venture going too. This tells me she sees a light at the end of the tunnel. She started seeing a therapist two months ago, but I have doubts about her usefulness. We've been four times. The first two times Ravyn talked with her alone. On the third visit, we both saw her. It did not go well. I began telling the doctor how Ravyn had started playing online with other kids and come out of her room more often. She didn't do either of those things a month ago. The doctor cut me off by telling me that teenagers need limited screen time and playing online doesn't count as social interaction. She asked me if I had considered sending Ravyn back to public high school. Yes, I did think about it but decided against it. First of all, I need to make sure that Ravyn knows how to handle certain things. One of the reasons I pulled her was because of bullying and the lack of help from the administration. That's when she started having body image issues and started spiraling downhill. I'd love to have her go to public high school, but I don't want her hurting herself when she gets overwhelmed with emotions and pressures. Not to mention we don't study the same curriculum, so she would probably be placed in 9th grade instead of 10th. The doctor said that's not true, they don't give placement tests, I just enroll her. I already checked into this in May, so I know what's what. Then she told me she can't go to college with a homeschool diploma because it's not accredited. She had to make her son get a GED when she homeschooled him. If I didn't believe her, I should call the college. It was at this point that I realized the lady was an idiot. First of all, I'm the type of person that researches the hell out of stuff before making a decision. Public schools don't have accreditation. A homeschool is considered a private school in Texas and the diploma I issue will be accepted by colleges. 85% of colleges prefer a homeschool diploma over a GED and many prefer homeschool students over public students anyway. Statistics show homeschooled students are more organized, independent, and focused. So yeah, apparently this doctor is under the impression that Ravyn's depression and anxiety are due to being stuck with her parents all the time because "that's not normal". Seriously. We've been searching for someone to help us learn to cope and manage stress in a healthy way for over a year and this is what we got. God help us. Why in the world would I push my baby bird out of the nest when her wings aren't fully healed? So back to the drawing board. I can only do the best I can do, but I won't give up on my kid. I've devised a plan and Ravyn has agreed to try. When the youth group starts meeting again in September, she'll be going back to church. She's also going to go one co-op class if I can find one in my area. If not, she'll enroll in the ASL class at the college. Bam! Socialized! As for everything else..I'm going to keep being the nerd I am and continue reading any information I can on depression and anxiety in teens. We're making progress one baby step at a time. |
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but seems to be okay today. I worry about my poor circulation, scrub my toes with a soft bristle brush, watch discoloration come and go. I probably need new arteries or veins but hey... "Heathcare" USA (enough said?). I may be better off trying something here in Thailand. But still... wish I lived in a country that had adequate patient based healthcare. Thailand and Taiwan mostly do, but I can't access it. First world systems like Europe, Canada and Australia do, but again, I can't access it.