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| 30 Day Blogging Challenge Prompt 8 ▼ I know I'm not a good blogger. Blogging is new to me. I've kept diaries and journals, but this blogging this foreign. Which is why I wanted to give it a try. And a second try. It's kind of like putting my diary online for all to read. And judge. It's pretty damn scary to open up and be vulnerable. I don't know other WDC members as well as some do. But I want to. I want to have connections and friendships. My family is my life. I have exactly 3 friends in Real Life that I'm not related to and they all live over 3 hours away. It's hard. As adults, it's not acceptable to walk up to a new person and say, "Will you be my friend?" Online friendships seem even harder to facilitate. I don't open up easily. I thought opening up by blogging would be simple. But it's not for me. So I'm probably a shit blogger. But I'm learning. I try not to edit myself, but I tend to second guess every damn thing I type. In Real Life, I'm pretty blunt and have no problem speaking my mind. If someone has an issue with that, well, it's not my issue, so whatever. In a bizarre way, I feel more protective of my thoughts on here than I do say, at the grocery store. Maybe it's because I really want to be accepted here and I'm scared my loud ass self will frighten people away. Seriously, I feel like the new kid in high school. I want to shout, "Like me! Accept me! Be my friend!" But I'm scared to death of the rejection. This feeling really sucks. I haven't read too many blogs before this challenge. But I have discovered that I really enjoy it. It's a cool feeling to be able to identify with some of ya'll even though we haven't met. I'm the nerd that loves to learn, so even when I can't identify with someone, it's great to discover a new point of view. Plus- Adult Conversation is a bonus. I love these kids, but having other actual adults to talk to is wonderful. I didn't realize how much I miss that. I don't have an answer to the question, "What aspects of blogging are most important to you?" Because I'm still learning. And I'm proud of myself for trying to open up. These prompts are great for me because otherwise, I would either just write random senseless bullshit that doesn't let you see the real me or I wouldn't try to blog at all. Hopefully, at the end of this challenge, I will have more answers. If not, then I guess I'll just try again. Cheers. |
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but seems to be okay today. I worry about my poor circulation, scrub my toes with a soft bristle brush, watch discoloration come and go. I probably need new arteries or veins but hey... "Heathcare" USA (enough said?). I may be better off trying something here in Thailand. But still... wish I lived in a country that had adequate patient based healthcare. Thailand and Taiwan mostly do, but I can't access it. First world systems like Europe, Canada and Australia do, but again, I can't access it. 