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The side-chapter revealing the outcome after the murder of Teralen |
Blackness. That was all I saw. All that I felt. How long has it been? I cannot tell. The last memories I hold is being killed by the one I loved; the one that I thought loved me, as well also the thoughts of my family and sister. Because of my foolishness, family I would never see again. Did it matter anymore? Could it? After giving in to Death, as it was inevitable due to the fatal wounds, only pure darkness encased me away from the world of the living. The pain I suffered has at least, faded. Was this empty void the rest and relief from suffering after life? Or merely just a wait? I couldn’t hear nor see or move…I can only hear as well feel my own mind and soul. The wait seemed endless, almost eternal... though I had no rush. I felt at ease, yet also yearning for something unknown while the everlasting darkness kept me embraced in its abyssal grasp. How long have I been dead now? Is this truly all the afterlife could be? What about the promises of our creator..? Have I been abandoned, ceased from existence? I wanted to roar in screeches! I wanted to cry! I wanted to find a light but none of my hopes came in the darkness. I was part of the void, with the knowledge and memory that my body would perhaps just rot in the forest... and the one whom killed me lives on without care of my fate. Time had no flow for me, as I do not know how long it has been, though something new started to happen... I saw a light grow in the distance! I couldn't approach it, for it approached me. Suddenly I heard many loud roars all around me from no visible source. One of them even sounded like my mother… Was I imagining the roars? Surely it couldn't be imagined, as the light ahead grew, increasing in brightness with intensity! Fear suddenly grasped me as everything shattered like glass in a burst of light! The darkness that held me imprisoned was washed away like mud by rain upon smooth hide, just swept away. I saw now only brightness, blinding white. It was overwhelming, I felt as if my heart raced beyond the speed of sound, wind and light! To my surprise, I slowly started to regain my physical form despite though my flesh was deceased, I knew instantly I was not alive. As the darkness was washed away I saw once more through my eyes! I held vision again, though of nothing of home or anywhere I knew. It was blank, white and bright. I looked to my paws, examining my body, seeing I I was me, yet at the same time not. It made no sense... It was as if a spectral image of whom I once was. Before I could pounder more a voice spoke out from no where and everywhere, "Teralen . . ." I looked around seeing nothing, until then a figure approached as if it has already been here. It was the form of a man that bore robes of pure white and gold trims with a hood covering it's face. I did not recognize him, I could only stare. "You have lived a young life full of confusion, emotion and experience. You have died and are now before me . . . To which I shall pass your judgment, as right it is to come upon all the creatures whom fall in death." Tears started to stream down my snout, I don't even know why as fear and sadness seeped inside yet also a sincere plea of hope spoke my soul. The man stood nearby with a large tome, looking into it. "Ever since you were a hatchling, you have been curious, kind and gracious as you grew well, staying on the path of light, following the Infernal culture..." Before my eyes the white void shifted into a scene of my past from my life... The blank area was somehow instantly now my home when I was a young... I saw my parents with myself there as a young yearling, running about playful and happy as a child. Was this some kind of illusion? I knew I was dead... And yet I was seeing my past as if a ghost and spirit who traveled back in time to see myself when I lived my youth. I saw my mother Fierya and father Furyan smiling proudly over me... "You have always learned new things with an open mind growing to be fair and honest; you were kind yet almost too caring. You've gained many a friend because of how you are." The scene as instant it first appeared was shifted now seeing myself in the meadow, a bit older as a youngling with my friends, being admired for many a thing that I have almost forgotten about. "You enjoyed most learning how to fly as a Juvenile and have helped countless times your friends and others to learn flight, saving them much embarrassment and pain." Again the scene shifted, I saw myself at the mountain range along the eastern border of the Sky-Mountains... My friends were with me, and I saw myself speak but I did not hear my own words. My friends were watching me attentively as I saw myself spread wings and leap into the air to glide, before then landing before them, assisting them in teaching them how it felt like for my wings. I remember that, when I lived back then those many cycles ago... "But... there then came a time that foolish disparate blindness attached to your heart, a lack of experience of such emotion." The man said while looking directly at me, before then returning his gaze back to the book. I felt a pang in my core as that was spoken... For already I had a sense what was next to be seen. "Your heart was pure and intentions true, but you have let it oversee all else. Things you did not see... Such as..." Suddenly before me, the scene around us shifted to a cave again, but it was not my mother’s... It was Tranras' home cavern. I looked in surprise, as there I saw him, beside another female dragon that I have never seen before, looking flushed and smiling as well nuzzling against him. Pain lurched in my heart as I saw this... Tears started to brim my eyes... "You did not know nor see, what was beyond your knowledge and ability. Before Tranras pretended to be with you, he had a mate to call his own, yet discerningly kept upon a secret, denying the female, Xelna; a proper bonding in ceremony. He has been playing her heart while also manipulating you. Not once, did he speak to Xelna of you." I watched all the scenes one by one as it played its course through time, showing each meeting I had with Tranras. I Witnessed how... How love struck I was to miss every alarming sign. Even when he grew more controlling over me, I was... blind. The sorrow in my core grew. I knew now that I was a fool. I continued to watch the scenes, even scenes that I have not been directly a part of, such as a scene that showed Tranras boasting to his friends about how easy I was to use... "Cometh a Dawn that before you visited, Your sister was but a fallen child. Her egg cold with death's grasp. I have renewed and blessed the revived child myself, the same child you met the dawn next. Even though with a new sister, your thoughts ran with love that was not true for you. neglection for your family was within you." I didn't want to see what was next but I had no choice. I could not look away, as it was everywhere. I saw before me first, the past of me showing how I kept dawn after dawn spending lesser time with my mother and father as well my human brother, agreeing one day to leave home only to visit a whole cycle away. I did not know my mother was pregnant then, and by chance the day I returned was when I met my new-born sister. The scene that shifted into next was my first meeting with Korvia, my baby sister by blood. Tears flowed down more as I saw how beautifully adorable she was, how innocent and pure... And yet as the scene moved forward, I saw myself, how I talked to my mother about events. "For one as wise as Fierya Skyheart, she could not protect nor save you from your own fall; your own heart that has misled you. You have chosen to neglect and disregard your own mother's love, her warning for you and to abandon your family. You did indeed though keep your word to visit a whole cycle later. Why so long? Have you known how it has affected not just you, but all your family?" The scene shifted once more... as I witnessed myself alone in my own lonesome cave, working with the Star-Sapphire pendant I was crafting for Tranras, focused most on it as well the thoughts of him. I watched myself continuously work on the soon-be gift. Why was I such a fool?! I clawed the stone ground in sorrow and pain, but I felt no ground under for it was merely a scene, a memory… The past; and I was no part of the world of the living. I tried to shout at myself to stop! To go home! To be with my family! But no voice rang out... The stream of time flowed continuously showing myself there, working idly. "Even with your own disregard, you were missed and loved, and despite normal circumstances, you were remembered, by one of youth." That was when I felt as if my heart was pierced, for the scene shifted immediately. It was then I saw my little sister in my mother's home, speaking in such an adorable tone. I have never heard her speak before... it brought tears to my soul as I heard her speak, questioning to our mother if it was the dawn she'd see me again. The look of her expression...The look! How sad she was that she expressed when mother told her it was not yet the day. "And when the day came for your own blooded sister to see you once more, where were you Teralen?" I didn't want to remember..! I didn't want to see..! But I had no choice. There I watched, Tranras by my side in the forest. Now as I view, see just how possessive he was. From witnessing the signs from all the scenes of the past, I couldn't believe how in life I was such a fool... To be blind to it all! I died, because of my own foolishness. The memory of what Tranras spoke to me in the forest before killing me suddenly echoed loud in my core; ""Perhaps you should have listened to your lovely mother then…Hahaha for a Dragonqueen she is quite pathetic for not raising her daughter to be better than this to fall to such manipulation…"" I wanted to roar out in anger and sorrow at him right there as I saw the events transpire once more, though like my last attempt... Nothing happened; I could not change the flow of time. I was but a spirit watching the past of my life, watching my foolishness. I witnessed now through the view of a ghost the way I was killed, seeing my own blood spill and seep, how stunned I was after hearing my roar of agony. Seeing how he left me there to die as I laid there in a growing pool of blood. I tried to look away from the horrific sight. Experiencing it was enough, witnessing it as a spirit was almost as unbearable. The man stood beside me, still read through the book, his hood covering his face. His voice I heard rang out once more, "Do you know the sorrow that came, following after your death? Hurt not only was thy mother... But also thy blood sister as well along with later your young brother of heart." My soul felt as if it wanted to just break down in sobs, I could not bear much longer witnessing all this... Yet it was forced upon me. There was no choice as I had to. As the scene shifted... I saw my little sister and how excited she was when the dawn came to finally meet up with me. It pained like daggers firing repeated into my gut as I heard the words of my mother and sister... Echoing loud, "“Yes my little darling, this is the dawn that we meet with Teralen in the meadow! I’ve missed my sweet Tera so much... We should convince her to live with us again!” --- --- “Yesh we shoulds mum! Yesh yesh!” --- --- “Then let us make that happen, we are to meet her this early dawn too!"" _____________________ I howled loud to myself, wailing into the air... I never knew this..! I have neglected my family, and to see their excitement in for me... It was... I didn't have time to think anymore for the scene shifted once more. I saw my little sister walking with mother in the forest... The forest I was murdered in. To my shock I saw my sister just run off from mother! I wailed aloud to her to stop, to turn around! “Noonooo please… go back to mom… DON’T GO AHEAD PLEASE..!!” Though my pleas was unheard... I could only watch with deep regret and sorrow. It was then to my horror to witness, my little sister finding my body. I saw my own body, laying there. Dead. Bloodied. I felt such agony, unending sorrow within, it was as if my soul was twisting and bending but would not snap..! I could not get away from these scenes..! I watched the terror with tears streaming down my eyes, hearing my sisters words... "Sister!! Founds yous! Missed yous much..!!" There was only silence. "S...sisteer..? Pw...pwease wakes ups...yous nu deer! Yous can nu be dead! Nu nu nu yous nu deer!!" The emotion building in me was so great, I wanted to explode with apologizes, to beg for forgiveness, to be there for my new sister and make up for all the suffering trauma I caused! "S..sister..! WAKES UPS WAKES UP PWEASEEE I Missed yous! S…SISTERR…!” The wailing cries of my sister rang through my core, my spirit and soul, I couldn't believe it... I cannot handle it anymore. I was shown the truth and cause as well the results of my actions. I collapsed down sobbing… broken... I felt shattered. Obliterated. The man then closed the book. The final scene faded away shifting back into the blank white. He lowered his hood, revealing his Azure blue eyes and brown hair, a light beard with a golden regal crown atop his head. He walked over to me as I sobbed, placing a hand upon me. I cried out feeling I would drown in sorrow for eternity for I was unworthy of joy because I have sinned crime in the end beyond pain not only to myself, but to my entire family... I never wanted that... I never intended it... My soul felt broken and shattered in millions of shards like crystalized gems, and here now was judgment that has just reflected my whole life... Deeds of good and mistakes of all. His voice spoke once more, calmer and soothing... "Teralen... For all you have done, in life both young and grown... Your soul is not tainted, only mislead in the end. Tell me my child... Do you truly feel sincere for the suffering you caused in the end of your life to family as well yourself, for your Sins of the Past?" His words echoed in my heart... My soul... I looked into his eyes... I was so full of sorrow, shame and regret. My eyes were opened to realize all the wrong I did, even the unintended. I whispered to him my words so low yet heard nonetheless, "Azuren...Creator of life... I have not been perfect nor have I done all right in my life... I see the suffering and sin I have done in my life... I never intended it... I am sorry and hope you can forgive me... So perhaps I could now rest and know I may be forgiven..." He looked into my eyes... Staring long and deep, before replying to me... "My child...Teralen, No longer must you Suffer, your soul speaks true and pure, and held not against you anymore. You are forgiven. The Darkness you will not return to, neither shall you go to abyss, but to life forever renewed will you have in this Era...and soon the next. It is time to come home my child... Let us go." Suddenly within, the sorrow and all the pains as well regret washed away as he rubbed my cheek, smiling as he stared into my eyes. My tears flowed still, yet stopped as he wiped away with his hand, wiping away my tears... And they stopped. I felt peace inside as I stood up; walking beside me as he led me into a warmth. It is almost indescribable... My heart beat with joy and relief; I started to tear but this time with Joy... Not sorrow...My soul and spirit felt alive, TRULY alive. The sensation felt real and greater than what it was like physically in life. I no longer felt as if a ghost of the dead, but a creature of life. I was going home... Home with the creator in his heaven… he walked by my side with a hand holding my side, like a father, like a mother; guiding his once lost but now found child... Home. |