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| A place where all the voices in my head can talk to each other |
| Today I wanted to strangle my boss only once. He is a great boss, but the world's worst procrastinator, even worse than myself, and I end up working on his presentations pretty much round the clock. I actually don't mind that much, I like gathering and presenting data, but I would like to get a bit earlier warning than a few hours. Four more days to go. Plus I get to OD on tv, which is quite decadent since I don't own one, now I get to watch all these bad movies and my brain can take a break. I also passed my three-week mark of sobriety, and I have to admit that I am having a hard time with it, especially this week with all the stress and the activities that require hob-nobbing with scientists, and it seems like that especially demands alcohol. So far I've been able to stave it off, and I hope my strength will continue to be with me - wish me luck. |
| I have been making steady progress for the past three days, knock on wood it will continue. Next week will be spent on a business trip, which sounds like the oldest excuse in the book, and I will have to see how I'll fare. Maybe next week will be spent on my portfolio here at WDC - I know it feels neglected. But so far - two weeks' sobriety and three days' writing. Small, important victories. |
| Today marks two weeks of sobriety. My head feels clear, and my body is thinking about a mutiny. Yesterday I actually wrote for about half an hour, and boy did it feel good - I'm aiming to do the same today. I'm listening to music again, I think the constant visualization was too much, to frightening. I've been in this world for over three decades and I still sound like a kid. I feel like one, too, it's like I'm connecting with the world for the first time - you know the way you used to feel like when you were a young child and everything was new? Exactly like that. I'll give you an update on how today turned out. Later. |
| It has been awhile - again. I received a great comment from another wdc member - thank you!! It was such a great nudge to see someone else say what I am thinking, and realize that not only am I transparent, but also that something's gotta give. I am on the road to recovery. Two weeks ago I had a near breakdown - I had been drinking steadily for about a week and a half, and all of a sudden my mind got tired of holding on and simply let go. I can't blame her, it must have been frustrating to try to keep the fragments together, and I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did. And all this time I was going to work, pretending to be ok, and to be honest,I can't even really remember those few weeks. I've been drinking pretty much steadily ever since I was 14, and alcoholism runs in my family. I have tried quitting twice before, but never had a support system in place before attempting to become sober. This time I have this great guy who is very supportive, and a close friend who's been going to AA for years - so my chances are much better off the start. WIsh me luck. I've had some bad withdrawals and I'm nearing my second week of sobriety, so it should get physically easier. I quit smoking six years ago, and I figured I should be able to do this, too. talk to y'all soon! |
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*Pets Ruby and gives her a BIG hug* Here Ruby, I brought some of those treats with me and we should detour home that way too because there are lots left to gobble up. 
LOL J/K 