The Horde

Lost inside

I have a feeling that my week off did more harm than good. I just dont have the drive for work that I did. I have broken down now twice since I got back. Grant it once was do to two managers complaining about the mess one was making while blaming me and not giving me the time to take care of it.

Then again it could be that I am simply emotionally worn out. I have my son at home but home is empty not a place I want to go. In fact it's gotten to the point I just want to either walk or just curl up. Things I want and or dream about are just so far away. I know my son dose not understand for all we have been through I have tried to not let him feel like I am not there. I know at times I have failed but at lest I'm trying to do the right thing.