The Horde

Longing

The last couple of days has been hard though I think the hardest part is that I keep dreaming and wanting to be With my man. Yet, we are over 300 miles apart. Normally I would fear scam but this time its different. Why do I say that? Well to start out with I already knew him. We just the first time had partners so we respected our own personal boundaries. Though that did not shut us down from being friend that talked at work. Grant it for the most part we kept it peaceful and pg. Though I can recall at least once I let him vent about things going on in the store to help ease through the day. I got to see him on the fourth of July and well it went from someone I knew and was talking with to knowing where we both stood in the matter of minutes as we both relaxed and answered our hearts. I'm not sure what to do. I know I have to keep working keep what I have so I can provide for my son but at the same time I dream of my man at my side us doing things. From working on rigs, gardening, wonder because we can. curled up together watching TV or movies. I feel the stress poking at me because I am unable to spend time with my man. Yes, I want to get to know him better. Then again I want to share who I am with him as well.