We're all mad here.

Follow the White Rabbit

Create a blog entry (or static item) about your participation in this project/activity, and what you hope to gain from it once finished. (<500 words)

Okay, we start with one of the difficult ones. I can already tell that Wonderland may drive me mad. Or would if I wasn't there already. Am I mad? Probably. But the problem is, articulating motivation always makes me a bit jumpy. I second guess myself. Over and over. sigh.

Ah well. I'm not sure what I hope to gain from this activity--mostly because I haven't done it yet. Is that wrong? I look at the question and think that any answer must be wrong, because I fundamentally don't know the future. But I like challenge type things where I'm encouraged to write, even though I never quite know what's going to become of it. Maybe I'll end up coming up with the seed of a story or a poem that I like enough to work on again and fix into something I really like. Maybe I'll just end up with a series of random things that I'm not quite sure what to do with. I've participated in challenges that have given me both.

The thing is, the most important part of this activity for me is that it's going to make me write. And when I'm in a position where I'm writing, I write more. I like my life when I'm writing more. It makes me feel more stable (and more crazy—I never said I was consistant or coherent when I think about things).

I'm so tired, and I want this to help me wake up again. I've kind of been living off of exhaustion and knitting for the last little bit. So, if there's going to be a gain, I hope it'll be that I'll be inspired to come out of that. I'm not requiring that of this activity, of course. If it doesn't happen, it's my own fault, not Wonderland's, but here's hoping.

Or maybe I should say that I hope that I'll have fun playing and writing again with friends. Ultimately, that's all I can really say that'll happen as I write this month. And if that's the only thing that happens, it'll be a good time.

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