Writing about writing

Recovering NaNo-Writer

I’m slowly starting to feel better about NaNo being over. Digging into books like “Sandman Slim” and “Outlining Your Novel” isn’t the worst thing ever. Granted, the latter wouldn’t please my best friend, due to the fact that it might be a little too close to working, but whatever. It keeps me afloat, makes me feel like I’m doing something meaningful, in spite of doing nothing at all. “Sandman Slim” is a great novel by the way, go read it! And if you're a planner like me, “Outlining Your Novel” seems like a must-have book, so grab that too!

Besides that, I’m finding my way back to slightly healthier routines, like doing my dishes and eating properly. When you’re writing 10-12 hours a day, there isn’t time for much else, and it’s quite nice to see my apartment not looking like shit. I spend four hours (!!!) cleaning yesterday, and now I can actually see my desk and kitchen counter! All of my clothes are clean too, seriously, it feels like magic.

I’ve successfully quit smoking again, and it’s not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. If anything it happened out of sheer laziness, I just couldn’t be bothered to go fetch cigarettes, so instead I just quit. It happened Sunday, and I have yet to murder someone, which I believe to be a success in itself. I guess it really just was a stress-thing, it’s my go-to when I feel pressured, and now that it’s over, I can handle the lack of cigarettes again.

I’m having a hard time painting though, it’s like I’ve forgot how to do it. It’s okay, maybe it’ll come back to me at some point, I can always pull out the tablet, and it’s not like I’m in any kind of rush to do it. Right now I take so much pleasure in reading, that I feel like I need nothing else anyway. With a library of 1000+ books, I’m pretty confident I can keep myself occupied through this week of vacation.

I took down the post it notes, and survived. I went and bought a nice box for them, and now they’re kept safely within. I also threw down the ones for “Swaying Between Worlds”, as I want to redo the whole thing, I figured I would get rid of those as well. It didn’t feel nearly as bad to get rid of those, than it did “We Dream About Surviving”, so I think it’s a safe bet not to keep them around. If I don’t feel utterly depressed and heartbroken about letting go of a project, it probably wasn’t that great to begin with. It’s okay, I’ll come up with something better, I just know it.

Now, I’m going to go get dressed and go for a walk. I could definitely go for some fresh air, and the weather is real nice here in Denmark today, with a clear blue sky and everything!