Evolution of love

'I' is only a thought

We learn all the wise spiritual sayings.
We learn in books,
Satsang I am effortless, choice-less, pure awareness,
I am the ultimate reality,
I am Brahman and then on the other hand we feel the opposite.
We say to ourselves, "I feel lonely, I feel depressed,
I feel there is something wrong someplace.
I feel this, I feel that".
So we're caught in the middle.
What to do?

If we really tune into Satsang and to our inner powers
we will find something very interesting happening.
There is one word common to both feelings,
the high spiritual feelings in the relative world.
And that word is 'I'.

When we say, "I feel like Brahman",
or "I feel like I am choice-less awareness",
or "I am absolute reality", or "I am wonderful",
we're making a mistake because we're saying,
'I' and we're identifying with the human body.
The human body can never be choice-less awareness.
The 'I' which is the human body as far as your concerned can never be absolute reality.
So when you say I am Brahman or I am choice-less awareness nothing will ever happen because you're referring to yourself being that. It cannot be that way.

Again when you refer to being depressed you say,
"I am depressed.
I feel terrible.
I feel this and I feel that".
You're using the same I.
To understand this is the beginning of wisdom.
You're using the same I for both sides of the same coin.
Therefore you'll never get anywhere.
So what to do?

You begin by
realizing that the 'I' is only a thought and
it is the 'I' that feels all of these things and
not you.

It is the 'I' that expresses all of these things.
It is the 'I' that exclaims, "I feel sick.
I feel sorry for myself.
I feel like I'm God.
I feel like I'm Brahman", and yet you don't feel anything really.
Life goes on, nothing happens
because you're using your 'I' to identify everything.
But when you come to the conclusion that
'I' is experiencing all of this.
Not you but I.

When you begin to realize that 'I' thinks it's Brahman,
'I' thinks it's absolute reality.
'I' also thinks something is wrong with my life.
I also believe I was born and I die.
I've got problems.
I believe that all is well.
I believe everything is going to be beautiful in my life forever.
We're always using the 'I'.
This is the important part.

We want to separate the 'I' from reality.

And you do this by understanding that you are not 'I'.
You have absolutely nothing to do with 'I'.
I'm not referring to 'I' as God.
I'm referring to the way you use 'I' in everyday life.

Again let me reiterate.
The reason some of us do not make much progress is
because we use the "I-am" like an affirmation.
You're saying, "I am choice-less awareness".
When you say, 'I', you're referring to the material self.
To the body and the body is an illusion it can never be anything else but an illusion.
Therefore when you say, "I-am" Brahman.
"I-am" choice-less awareness".
Realize that "I-am" has the same meaning as Brahman or choice-less awareness.
"I-am" is consciousness, it is God.
When you say it this way you have an all new perspective on this thing.
Don't you?

You're looking at "I-am" as reality not as your body or as your experiences.
And if you can understand this and hold onto this
when you say, "I am sick, I feel terrible".
You will catch yourself
because you will realize that "I-am" is God and
"I-am" can never feel sick or terrible.
"I-am" can never be anything else but itself, absolute reality,
pure consciousness.

But first you have to see 'I' as the I-thought,
as the mind before you can do the other.
You have to realize that everything is attached to the I-thought, all of your emotions, all of your feelings, your body, your mind,
the world, the universe everything you believe is the 'I'.
If there were no I available there would be nobody to believe anything.
You'd have hardly anything to say.
And it is true it is only when you say, 'I', that you can say everything else that comes after it.
I am poor, I am healthy, I am sick, I am rich.
Everything is attached to the first pronoun I.

All you have to do is catch yourself.
Try to understand this completely then you'll become free.

And you'll become totally free just by doing this alone.

By realizing the 'I' is a thought,
the I-thought and is not you and
by realizing the "I-am" is God itself.

The "I-am" is total liberation, total consciousness.
Think about this, it's very important.
This alone will take care of everything for you.
If you can only awaken to this fact.
Whenever you say, 'I', catch yourself.
Do not go any further.
Remember to remember to catch yourself.
You may also inquire, "To whom does this 'I' come?
Who is thinking of this 'I'?"
By following through on these things you make tremendous progress.