Writing in Snow

Midweek Reflections: I don't know what I am doing

‘Idál (Justice), 19 Jalál (Glory), 147 BE - Wednesday, April 26, 2017 CE

"I don't know what I am doing." "Spiritual Newsletter (April 26, 2017)"  Describes the way things went after I returned home from picking up my Senior Commodities. The problem is that I thought my SNAP application had everything it needed, but when I got home I found out that the letter my sister sent saying she could no longer help me with the rent had fallen out of the envelop I put the letter, along with the envelop it came in, into. Thank God, I put the envelop with my address inside the other one because I would never have known it didn't get to the office otherwise.

It's bad enough my sister isn't going to help me with the rent. I don't know how I'm going to pay the rent on the first of May. At least, I have a ten day grace period which I'm not sure is going to help. Anyway, what I was going to write before I got distracted, not only don't I know what I'm doing but I don't know what I'm going to do. Therefore, I think I will take the advice in the newsletter and stop fighting. I'm going to let go and let God handle this one because I can't seem to find a solution to my problem. I know there must be a solution which I just can't see at this moment.

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"Thank you for writing about this subject because today this is the advice I need."

I think my biggest problem is financial. The breaks in the car went out and I can't afford to have them fixed. I need money to get another part and it's the most expensive part. I'm tired. I keep falling over the issue of finances, so it's obvious I don't know what I'm doing. Writing helps a little. I need to stop, take a deep breath and let the waves of these troubles roll over me. I doubt the I will drown and when the waves stop rolling the I will be able to see, with the help of God, a solution.