Evolution of love

AWAKENING

These two experiences happened together, one following within a few moments of the other.

In the first, I became the Oneness of everything, and in the second,

I became the consciousness or spirit that totally woke up out of all identification,

even out of Oneness.

When the Oneness dropped away, there was still a basic awakeness, but it had two different aspects:

I'm everything, and I'm absolutely nothing. This was the awakening, the realization of Self.

The next thing that happened was that I took a step, just an ordinary step. It felt like the way a

baby does when it takes his first good step and then smiles and looks around as if to say,

"Did you see that?" and you can see his joy.

So I took a step, and it was like, "Wow! The first step!" and another step, and then another,

and I kept moving in circles because every step was the first step. It was a miracle.

In each "first" step, formless consciousness and Oneness just merged together so that the

awakeness that had always identified itself as form was now actually inside of the form,

unidentified. It wasn't looking through any thoughts or memories of what had come before,

just through the five senses. With no history or memory, every step felt like a first step.