Shellyville Continues

2 Weeks?

Hello Sunshine,

In the middle of my mind is a tragic truth. I am not as innocent as I pretend to be. I am not without faults. I have lived through so many of them.

Only the truth is I have something to hide. I hide the truth of my unending love for him. I try so hard to ignore it. I fill up my days with activities and my nights with mindless nonsense. All to escape the reality of a haunting love that scares the shit out of me.

It's a chemistry connection. It's beyond my control and it happened when my heart wasn't even aware.

It happened over 4 years ago.

It is happening again right now.

This time is is gone out of State. He tells me he will be back in two weeks and everything will be different. I am not sure I can believe him.

Oh I know he will be back but will he be different? Is he honestly ready for me? Is he ready to take this to a place that only real adults travel? Is he ready to be whom I want him to be?

Time is my best friend at the moment. I can take this and dream.

Love,
Michelle