Wondering about my Wanderings

Stomaching it.

Stomaching stress:

So how do I stop myself from freaking out during the holiday. There seems to be so much energy on trying to get someone the perfect gift and yet the cost and energy to get it done is causing more pain than a gift should warrant.

I am left trying to figure out how to make this Christmas meaningful without causing too much stress for me or family. What am I showing them if I have to hurt so much to give?