I've had a pretty unusual life, but I want more. Jesus was a large part of my childhood and adolescence . My dad put a crucifix over my bed. Late at night I'd look up from my pillow at the porcelain Jesus hanging over me. I'd imagine Jesus jumping down and having a conversation with me. Jesus would say~ "You must stop abusing yourself in front of me." I'd apologize .. and abuse myself. That's what mom and dad called it. They actually expected a 9 year old boy to be celibate. My sisters were humping everything, especially cucumbers. I guess that is natural. I think the big appeal of Rock&Roll is abusing yourself and others. (Youtube: Sweet Dreams) It gets a little silly with Myle Syrus. To each his own. I think most people just want a tickle. Sex is entertainment.... Why not legalize prostitution? I'm terrible with names. The girl on the Fox Five that gets the leg shot; she's a thousand dollar baby doll. Who cares what she thinks? I've noticed they don't have many men wearing shorts on Fox. Maybe Greg could wear a kilt? Maybe not. My dad lectured me on abusing myself. He said I would not enjoy sex with my wife, because "my grip was tighter than her womb." I was 11 or 13 and this peeked my curiosity . I had sex with Marcella in my bed under my crucifix. Marcella was tight. I like how she made opera noises. ... I think the important thing was not to get pregnant or a STD. We always used a condom. Marcella stole them from her dad. Marcella wanted to get married. I did not think we could. Honestly, I selfishly abused Marcella. She was my fucking pillow. Jesus watched it all. I imagined Jesus chastising me, but I was having too much fun abusing Marcella. Reflection: Is sex entertainment? It can be, but love is complicated. A lot of girls got pregnant at my high school, most of them had babies. They were all unwed mothers. |