It's not about me

Beautiful Chaos

This past two weeks have been so busy. I get anxious when my days are this busy; I feel like things are flying out of control. "Stop....take a deep breath....slow down." Words I repeat to my self throughout the day when I feel like it's too much.

Sometimes life just gets that way, chaotic. I'm one of those people who has to have everything organized, so when things get a little nuts and out of control, it can upset my apple cart. Writing things down helps. I'm a list maker. I love making a list because everything is in the forefront of my mind and better yet, I can cross them off when they are done! YES! I'm sure I'm not the only one like this and I won't be the last.

Tonight I decided to give it all up for the night. I'm sitting here in my office with the window open, the fresh smell of the forest after a good old-fashioned thunderstorm drifts through. There's a small animal crying somewhere and I wonder if it's mother is close by. Squirrels are chattering and fighting over something. They make me laugh watching them. Crickets are starting up their songs, which bring back memories of childhood summers. I love this time of year and I love the peacefulness right now. This, the beautiful sound of silence, the sound of nature, is soothing to my soul and reminds me it's ok to sit back and enjoy it.

Tomorrow is another day, a little more beautiful chaos, and another chance to start over. I need to remember this moment though and realize it is available to me every day, every night and all I have to do is reach for it. Chaos makes me crazy but there is beauty in those moments too, so it's all good. A little nutty, a little chaotic and a whole lot of happy.