On My Happy Cloud

So Much!

I’m having a really difficult time concentrating and staying focused at work today. All I have to do today is read through a bunch of training material (training, finally) and especially with my headphones in, I just can’t read more than a sentence at a time before my mind begins to wander. So much going on!

My flight for Switzerland was booked so it’s like…seriously official. I should be receiving my passport soon too. Did I mention that this is all for work so I don’t have to pay for anything? Jeepers. I never in a million years would have guessed I would have had an opportunity like this. And we’ll be there for a week.

I’ve been trying to plan our flight to Hawaii as well. It’s kind of tricky I have saved enough now to get us there and back and a hotel and rental car. I was kinda thinking I will book a cheap hotel for the first three nights we’re there and then the night we get married, move to a more expensive hotel. That way, it’s still not too expensive AND we get to stay in a nice hotel.

Holy crow. I’m getting married in 86 days! ^_^

So, I’ve also been planning the “reception.” I’ve had a few break down moments. I didn’t think I would lol. I think I underestimate brides when I see them get all upset and stressed out. I get it now lol. And I’m not even planning a wedding! The thing that’s frustrating is people telling me “It’s your party, you do what YOU want.” And then judging and telling me what they think I should or shouldn’t do -_-

But it’s coming together at least. I’ll just be happy when it’s done. We did decide to send out invitations so I’m having to deal with that but at least I found a good website to do them cheap. And they’re very pretty! I came up with them myself.

I was a little bummed when my sisters told me they weren’t going to throw me a shower after all. I mean, when I got engaged and told them I would be getting married in Hawaii I told them they didn’t need to throw me one but they insisted. I got my hopes up and was all excited and even registered for gifts and yesterday they told me they thought it would be best to just not do one. One of my sisters said I could still keep my registry and get gifts but I just want money for the honeymoon. If I had a shower, that would be just for extra gifts.

We set up a honeymoon registry online so that if people want to give gifts, they can give us money towards our honeymoon instead. It’s what we’d rather have. So that’s something I’ve been working on too. It’s the one thing I assigned the fiancé to do but alas….he thought it would be better if I did it. Haha, yeah he’s probably right.

I have ups and downs based on all this stuff but I’m getting really excited. It’s neat seeing the calendar and counting down days. Switzerland is a month away nearly!! Ugh! I’m gonna be getting on a plane to another country! My first time on a plane. How crazy.

The fiancé and I are going to King’s Island tomorrow. I’m excited for that too. We went to Six Flags Great America last year near Chicago. He used to go there as a kid a lot. I used to go to King’s Island as a kid a lot so I said I wanted to go there. I get to give him the tour and show him all my favorite rides ^_^

Then we’ll be going to a Def Leppard concert with my parents on August 24th.

Ugh…I need to start thinking about travel stuff! I have no idea what I need to take. I’m so nervous about being in an airport and going through security and bag checks and stuff :(


CRAZY!!

“Regrets collect like old friends, here to relive your darkest moments. I can see no way, I can see no way. All of the ghouls come out to play. And every demon wants his pound of flesh but I like to keep some things to myself. I like to keep my issues drawn. It’s always darkest before the dawn. And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind. I could never leave the past behind. I can see no way, I can see no way. I am done with my graceless heart. Tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then re-start. Cause I like to keep my issues drawn. It’s always darkest before the dawn. Shake it out, Shake it out. It’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off.” ~Florence and the Machine "Shake it Out."


Elaine Bradley