Every Couple of Sunflowers I Pass

Editing Block

Now I think I've been away from my manuscript for a couple of weeks again. It's editing block.

I'm burned out on writing about bipolar disorder, and my memoir about it, and all the things I feel like I need to go back and double check as well as info I haven't completed looking for. It wasn't supposed to take this long. It was already practically written. But I can't find the time to put all the pieces in the right order.

I'm overwhelmed. I think I forgot why I was writng boion statement/ In my head? I need a refresher..

I hope tomorrrow I can go to IHOP with my three ring binder that has my essays all printed out, and ready for me to deal with. I feel like I have to get away from the house to deal with it al this point.

My house is very cluttered, and it's making my mind cluttered. Plus the pup has been with me for about a week and a half, and he's wearing me out. Lack of sleep is getting to me because I'm used to sleeping too much. I can't sleep thru a teething puppy chewing on me in the middle of the night--a couple of times.

He thinks "no dogs on the bed at sleepytime" is a new game. I toss him off the bed, a fall of about sixteen inches, he rolls one direction another time or two, then gets in the bed from another direction. We went thru the game 4 or 5 times last night.

I sold my bed frame and bedroom furniture a while back, because I wanted a change. I'd had that bedroom furniture for 30 years, so I updated with a couple of different second hand pieces. I didn't think I needed a frame for my bed, but the Lab pup wouldn't be hopping into my old bed. It was much higher. Well, that's old business and over with. I'll hatch another plan somehow. I really wish I could sleep the whole night through. The roofers finished a total re-roof of my house today. It wasn't that loud, but they started early. The dog started barking at 6:20 am

It's so hot in the day that I've been taking the two dogs for a walk about 10:30 or 11:00 pm. It's comfortable if there's a breeze at all.

I'm really beat. But if I don't find the energy for a walk sleep won't come easy tonight. I have a feeling that sleep won't come easily if we don't walk. I don't need 5 hours of energy, just about 25 minutes. Shadow attacks in the dark. I stumble the sidewalk in the dark.l eye. I can't say no to my dogs' expectations. We're going on five days in a row. I only lost control of the bad dog once.

I think I can, I think I can . . . .