I'm Studying You

"I don't care where, just FAR"

OK I'm angry today, no sense denying it.

Stepped out for a smoke thinking that might help. Wrong move sucka.

Believe it or not I tend to be a really private person. Especially in moods like the one I'm in now. I don't like being approached by strangers. Especially when I'm enjoying a cigarette. I prefer to be alone in my head exploring my thoughts. Some call it "dwelling". OK I'll bite. I'm a dweller. To a fault.

I should just go home, sit on the couch and read a book or two.

So this guy says something about the weather. I smile and say something polite so this guy doesn't know I'm annoyed by him standing next to me. He crosses the street and waves at the car that stops to let him pass. Even his wave is annoying. It's a full shake of the hand, like he's the princess waving to her crowd. He gets in his car and makes a left turn onto the street, waving at the car that let him out. Again with the full open-hand wave.

I'm not in the mood for chipper old people.

I really just wanna rent a U-haul, load up all my shit and get the hell outta here. Set up shop someplace else where noone knows me. Maybe make a new start.

But I won't do it. And that's depressing.