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Greetings from the twilight zone

Jan 30, 2007

Hi.  It's been a while. Life here has been nuts and I won't go in to all of it but it's been nuts.

I've been really struggling with being sure of the direction God is leading me.  I desire so strongly to write...and yet there never seems to be any time...because of my classes mainly.  Those classes I"m taking to be a better writer...and this semester I'm truly blessed in one of those classes especially.  It's called Creative Writing-but it's more than that. It's about reading and writing and writing for the reader.  I'm hoping from it I will learn how to make my characters seem alive, my places seem real etc. 

Recently-tired and sore, emotionally at my limit, worn out from trying to get homework done, and stressing over not being able to get through this semester, my beloved and I had a very long talk about God's will in all that's going on in our lives.  We also talked about my need to write-the characters that live in my head (please tell me I'm not the only one who actually has another world going on in their minds-I'm really hoping this is a good thing to have...lol) We've come to the conclusion that I really need to try to write every day-about my story-not necessarily trying to write my story but just whatever comes to mind and is going on.  Mike's right...and I hadn't really thought about. I'm so used to writing short stuff that I can sit and finish in a day....my story has such a huge time span and I'm not sure how to make it all into what it needs to be...but I don't really need to, I guess.  I need to just put it all down on paper, and then put it together at a later time.  I don't know.  Any advice?

My other classes (besides creative writing) are rather a-boring, b-overwhelming or c-a combination of the two.  I love history.  I chose 101 over 102 because of the time period. 101 is up to 1877.  I've always been good with history and I like to read books with historical facts.  This course is tough.  The quizzes ask for more info than is given in what we read. There are such in depth discussion board topics that they have to be researched. Mind you I'm doing well. But with an algebra class-which is supposed to be the next one after the one I just took-only there are things in it I don't know, a business course that's very repetitive to what Mike learned-makes for boring reading but because it's an intro course instead of the in depth that he did, I still have to read it to pass the quizzes and such, a computer class that's interesting-but also very indepth and moves fast....I'm feeling rather overwhelmed and trying to settle in. Doesn't help that my internet was out for a day and a half this week and so now I'm behind.  As well as the fact that I've got a bad cold and don't feel good. Yippy. lol

Jamie is in the tub. TOnight is the night the kids normally go to AWANA's..kind of like a church cubscout program...he didn't want to go tonight. It's got me worried-he seems to have fun-but I didn't want to force him...then he cried because Cassy went but he didn't get to hug her...lol

Life is full of decisions to make right now so prayers would be a wonderful blessing.

I'll try to get back in this week but I won't promise. I have 5 quizzes this week and several homework assignments that I havent' started. 

Well, back to the grindstone. I'll talk to you soon. Thanks for stopping by

hugs
Vicky