We didn't plan for this to happen

As for me

This is from August 28, 2007

As for my own health, I am doing ok. I saw the doc today and my blood pressure is still pretty high. I have to stay on the meds for another two to four weeks, depending on how things go. I no longer have the proteins in my system that caused the seizures, but there will be residual effects for a little while longer. I am still at risk to have a stroke, but the chances are much less than before. Sometimes Eclampsia can cause kidney or liver failure, and the seizures can cause brain damage, but the doc says only a rare majority of patients develop these sorts of problems and didn't seem too worried about this happening to me.

I am still recovering from my C-section. I have another 2-4 weeks before I will be fully healed. I've been forced to endure "bed rest" for the last month and it is driving me nuts. I can't clean the house, walk for long periods, or do anything very physical. The blood pressure medication makes me feel drunk so I can't drive.

I have also been having some pretty serious migraines on a regular basis. This is particularly annoying because I have never been prone to headaches before. They're so bad I become extremely sensitive to light. Last night I was wearing my sunglasses in the house.

I'm sure the headaches are stress related. It's been difficult coping with this situation. The only way I know how to deal is to not think about anything too much. If I ponder too hard I burst into tears. If I thought about it all of the time, I'd be crying 24-7. It's hard being separated from Cadence and not knowing how things are going to turn out.