Amygdalia's Blog

Living amidst chaos

I've been trying to shut down for the past few days, and I wasn't sure why.  I realized last night that it's because the house is upside down.  I was doing ok, functioning and not getting overwhelmed, as long as the stuff that was being packed and moved was being stowed away.  But now my family room is a maze of boxes, and huge bags of stuffed animals.  My living room has a hutch standing in the middle of it, and boxes everywhere . . . there are clothes bins all over the bedroom . . .

Everything I've packed is stacked neatly against the wall in the kitchen.  It's when I realized that I'd done that, that I also realized I was having a major problem with the chaos around me.

I can't move the hutch, I can't move the huge boxes . . . so I shut down.  I focus inward, and shut out the world.  I know it's not healthy, but I don't know any other way to be.  I told Bob last night, after I realized what was going on.  I need all this stuff to go into the POD . . . then maybe I'll be able to function again.  Yuck. 

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