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Manic: Is it to much to ask just to be normal?

         Lately I have been feeling odd. Not quite myself. Of course there are a million and one reasons why this could be happening.

                   1.Doing something I thought I would never do.
                   2.Kissing a boy I have no intentions of dating or having any sort of                    relationship with....again.
                   3.Some crazy drama among "friends"
                   4.Losing previously stated "friends"

         The list could go on forever. My dad says I'm Manic. Maybe I am. I did have depression at one point, maybe its coming back. Only manifesting itself in a different way. Bi-polar.

         I am going to make a list of my "symptoms".

                   1.I do get rather hyper.
                   2.I do get very depressed.
                   3.Sometimes I have this amazing confidence. I can suddenly flirt, and                    laugh and smile like I've never done before.
                   4.Followed by weeks of self doubt, self hatred and a strong urge to self                    mutilate....again!
                   5.For the past couple weeks I have been getting up promptly at 6:15 even                    if I go to bed later.
                   6.But now I am having a much harder time getting up and I am lacking                    energy and I keep taking naps without meaning too!

         Is it too much to ask to just be normal?

~Evangaline~