Baby writer whining blog

Oh my it's March!

Here we go whinning about that I have been out of touch for a bit.  Had a relationship break up which hurt and was sick for a time with the flue.  Whine whine.  Now today I feel more clear then I have in a long time.  I am not bitter or angry just finally able to (as the movie says) Exhale. Except I am not exhaling because of a hot man but because he is gone and I can relax again and not feel guilty because I need my alone time and I need to be independent to some degree even in relationship. I need to grow as a person at my own pace. Now believe me I want to grow as a person and be open to life possibilities but you bully me or guilt me I will dig my heals in and did to some degree shamefully and I am a little embarrased about that.  Because of him I did learn about scuba diving and not allowing once limitations stop your life.  Because of him I grew as a person and I am grateful.