Poetry From The Heart

The Journey

Of the places I've been
The people I've met
You're the one
I'll never forget.
But you left me
So I start
Out on a journey
To mend my heart.
The journey is long
lasting many days and nights
I'll only return
When everything feels right.
Until that day
I'll travel this road
I'll embrace the heat
Shiver from the cold.
I can't return
To the place I called home
I was hurt too much
I must travel alone.
I only carry love with me
The love you pushed away
So I set out
On my journey today.
I don't look back
I won't turn around
I must go away
Never return to this town.
I wasn't good enough
My heart fills with shame
I hang my head
I don't share in your fame.
I helped you follow
All of your dreams
You pushed me away
Why were you so mean?
What did I do
To deserve this pain
Why did you leave me
On my knees in the rain?
I called out to you
Reached for your hand
You turned from me
I just don't understand.
So I start on my journey
To let myself go
To learn form my mistakes
Learn more than I know.
I'll travel far and wide
Look around each corner I turn
Let the flame die out
Too brightly it burns.
Too bright for you
It made you leave
I start my journey
With nothing to achieve.
I have nothing
Since you left
No matter what
I love you best.
I've now been on my journey
For one hundred days
It's crazy I know
But my perspective's still the same.
I've learned so much
Yet haven't found what I sought
I found I know more
Than at first I thought.
I know how to love
I know how to let go
I know you love me deep down
Your seed has started to grow.
I don't expect you to care
But your child is in me
Do I have to keep traveling
Or do you finally see?
Do you see what I mean
Can you feel what I feel
Don't you understand
That my love's for real?
I leave for a journey
To find a new start
Close your eyes
See what's in my heart.
Don't tell me to leave
Please hold me close
to what we had
I make a toast.
A toast to you
A toast to me
A toast to what
I thought would be.
During my journey
I've made a lot of friends
I'd give it all up
To have you again.
You wanted her
As a part of your life
I just don't see
How love made me blind.
It's hard without you
But you live and learn
I wanted you forever
My fire still burns.
Why'd you walk away
Leaving me to go
Upon my journey with no good-bye
Did you know in Colorado it snows?
I've now been on my journey
Almost a year
When I sit to reminise
And shed a solemn tear.
Will you think I'm weak
If I break down and call
It's not my fault I love you
You made me fall.
I fell deep in love
I fell extremely hard
But my lonesome journey
Has left me scarred.
I return home now
To claim what was mine
I just pray
You'll still share your time.
I want to call you up
Have you come down
Wrap my arms around you
Then let you hear the sound.
My heart is beating
In tune with yours
I want you to know
You're the one I adore.
My heart's yours to hold
My dreams are yours to share
I want you to know
I'll alawys care.
Today I end my journey
After a long hard year
I'm letting it end
So please don't fear.
I had a lovely journey
Aside from all the pain
I learned all about me
I'm not completely
insane.
I learned to live without you
I can be with someone now
My journey is complete
It's shown me how.
March 29,2000